Friday, June 30, 2017

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming

I haven't written on here in a while, and I should more. Because sometimes writing is therapeutic to me. 

Summer vacation is supposed to be fun. And it is, but sometimes it is more stressful. Carson and his obsessive behaviors can wear me out. I have said it before, I just wish I knew what went on in his head. The out of the blue things that he does. 
The past few days he will engage the toaster, with no bread in it. The other day there was a plastic cover sitting on top of it which he melted. There has been a toaster sitting on the counter his whole life, so why now is it something to "play" with. 
Why does the hand soap sit on the sink all the time, and today we have to dump it down the drain? 
Why can't I put a pan in the sink to soak stuck on food off without him dumping it? But if there are dishes in the sink before they go in the dishwasher they can sit there? 
There is a card table and a kid card table that he insists has to be open and sitting on the deck. And the stacked chairs have to be set around the deck. 
He has to repeat scences from an episode he has watched on his ipad and he will come to us no matter what you are doing and make us repeat what he is saying, and if you don't say it exactly like he thinks it should be (some words are very hard to figure out what he is saying) he will keep repeating sometimes getting louder and more agitated if we don't understand. 
The little kids toys, always in the same place, but yet one day they are playing with something and he wants it and gets agitated they have it. Thankfully the little kids just let him have it. But that is hard for 3/4/5 year olds to understand. Hell I am 43 and don't understand! 
Contrary to what some think, you can't watch him 24:7 and prevent the toaster being pushed down, the soap being dumped. I can't follow him around. All we can do is make sure nothing gets set on top of the toaster. And keep soap in the cupboard (buy the refill bottle and don't fill it)
And most importantly just keep swimming....it could be worse. 
Love the boy at all times, even when I want to scream. Because he is one awesome kid. ❤️

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