18! 18 years old! It is hard to believe it was 18 years ago that Carson made his entrance into this world. 3 1/2 weeks early, Easter Sunday, and tax day. (Ya know Auntie Joy is never forgetting your birthday)
It’s been a pretty emotional day for Mom & Dad. Again it just reminds us of all the things you won’t be able to do when you hit these milestones.
Driving, college, doing things with his friends, a girlfriend, dating, engagements, getting married, having babies...
I know we shouldn’t feel this way, we are lucky to have him in our lives, so many friends have lost their kids that are missing out as well, but damn it. It’s not fair. Why him? Why us??
15 years ago. His first birthday after diagnosis, he hid behind people. He didn’t want to open gifts, he didn’t have a care in the world about blowing out candles. Every year for his birthday. It is a struggle for me to pick a theme or what to do on a cake. Some say why bother?? But I am determined every year to celebrate him. He deserves it.
Now he smiles huge when we sing to him. He likes to open presents. He blows out his candles!
It might not be the birthdays we imagined but its his birthday and we know we just need to do things his way.
Some day we will get our answers and I try to remind myself every day is a gift. We do have one amazing boy (no, we have 2), he is awesome and like the song I shared this morning, he is Meant to Be!
This weekend we will celebrate our awesome boy and be thankful for everyday we get to have with him. Even if there is things he won’t do, we will be celebrate all the things he can do.
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